On the brink of doom

Results out.

This is the first time I'm sooo anxious about my result. I always tell others that I'm not those who will fuss over results as it is no longer something we can change. But this time around, it matters. Money matters.

As my CGPA for last sem was 3.13, I have to at least maintain 4 Distinctions in order to secure both loan and scholarship (requirement is GPA 3.0). Err my scholarship covers just a small part of my tuition fees, that explains why I'm a loan student.

Alright, so what's my result?

Sem 1, 2009:
AFW2401 - Commercial banking and finance ~~ 77 D
AFW2491 - Company reporting ~~ 77 D
AFW2851 - Accounting information system and financial modelling ~~ 72 D
ECW1102 - Introductory Macroeconomics ~~ 73 D

GPA: 3.08
WAM: 75.53

Well~~~ at one glance, I achieved my target of getting 4D and secured my loan. Also, both 2401 and 2851 paper exceeded my expectation. 2401 (finance paper) is because I scored my first C last year, so it sank my confidence for finance paper deep deep down. 2851 (AIS paper) is basically I have been complaining about this subject since the start of the sem. The AIS theory was totally boring and does not make sense to me. Thank goodness I can say good bye to them. Although Excel was interesting but nah..... I just don't like this subject.

Now, why I'm still not satisfied?

Because... its 2491 (accounting paper). I scored quite high for my internal marks (for quizzes, assignments). I thought I can score HD for it. Yes, I mind it, alot. I did not get HD for last sem and YES, I know I should not take it for granted. But~ last sem I didn't expect at all so that was different case.

Yea~ this post is becoming more "emo" because I seriously wanna spill all my dissatisfaction over here. This is not to bug those who read this but more to remind myself how the "dissatisfaction cum 不甘心 (pronounce as "bat gam sam" in cantonese)" feeling is. One thing, I do not feel bad about it. I know pretty well how much effort I spent for exam. No regrets, just purely feel defeated unwillingly.

Some say I'm optimistic. Some say I'm a worrier. I choose the latter now.
Judging the fact that my GPA is on downward sloping movement, I half mentally prepared yet still try to defend to maintain above 3.0 score.

This is not just about loan and scholarship. This is a matter of principle.

So yea! *blow all those emo dust away*

Sem 2, 2009, come what may!